Total, Absolute Respect

Last Updated on May 10, 2023

Painful Death and The Fear

I’m a tad sorry to post this here for any personal upset caused, but…………………………………….

If it helps while playing, think of Miles Dyson holding the weight inTerminator 2, or someone you watched die. Slowly.

The greatest respect that anyone can have for anyone is to totally empathise with the manner of their death.

I respect bravery, of course – but death always arrives, brave or not.

Drowing and the Fear

That’s what I think (sp) and this is my effort as I imagine the death of my brother and sister who both died from Cystic Fibrosis, (in the same way as most of the 250k killed by Boris Johnson’s lies and procrastinations that died from Covid-19)….

I imagine;

• the fear…
  • eyes hunt around
• drowning on their own phelgm
  • searching for breath
• pulse pounding in their skulls
  • throbbing
  • eyes scrunched up
  • brow wrinkled
• intubated & strapped down
  • fists grasping
  • fingers straightened
• great goggly eyes
  • sometimes awakening
    • hunting around
    • the impatience
    • the resignation
  • yet growing dim.

The morphine helped, of course…. My brother told me that he’d asked the nurses to overdose him to kill him, but they wouldn’t.

The performers are Gary, Jeff and me in jams taken from elsewhere. – Rees

………but it’s what we all think, at some time.

• The manner of our own demises.
• It is perfectly in-step with the name, ethos and many of our recordings as The Crawling Chaos.
• My words above, in a way, a homage to Bowie’s All The Madmen.
• The world breaks, they must be, very dim #slightchuckle